Let’s try to not be so hard on ourselves, why strive for perfectionism? When you can instead strive for happiness and joy.
This is our only life as the person we are and we can attract whatever we want if we only decide to do it and put ourselves out there.
Whatever you try to say is your “issue” is probably not, because if you don’t feel like there is progress or hope, then nothing is going to happen and you know it.
More energy. More focus. More playfulness. More fun.